My Practically Perfect Life

I have often been told that I am…unique? Eccentric, unconventional, diverse, mean, sarcastic, caring, funny, dumb, and so many other things. All things that I could describe what I joke and call all of my personalities! I have never been diagnosed with multiple personalities so I will go with that and say ha! Tricked everyone!! Just kidding!

My whole life, that I can remember and of course from stories I have heard, I have been what some people call hard headed. I would go as far as to say in the literal sense as well as figuratively. Literally because I have been hit in the head or suffered concussions more than anyone that isn’t in the NFL! And figuratively because I will not back down to an idea or opinion once I have made up my mind about it. Well, that’s not 100% true. I can be very open minded. But when I believe I am right I will fight for what I think. It’s funny to say that I can be stubborn and objective at the same time. Kind of like being nice and mean at the same time. Serious and sarcastic at the same time. You know…oxymorons. That’s me! A living oxymoron!

One of my favorite stories is a while back while visiting my little brother, a girl was at his house because his roommate was kind of talking to her. I guess? Anyway, I did not like her! I called here soap girl because she worked at Bath and Body Works and because I saw no need in learning her name. I was not very nice to her. I was blunt and told her I didn’t like her. She would giggle and say oh my gosh Nicole!! We are gonna be best friends!! I told her no way! I don’t like you…and she laughed and said I was so funny!! How in the hell did she not get that I was being serious?! Kind of like so many times that I can say something completely false and do it with a straight face so the people I am talking to think I am serious but I am totally bull shitting them. It’s a gift and a curse I suppose. But it is me. I am a lemon drop! Sweet on the outside and sour on the inside! Sometimes opposite that but you get the analogy!

It is so normal to me to be this way that when other people are not it is kind of strange. I mean I have gotten used to it but I still think it’s crazy some people are just one way. There are serious people that never kid around. Or silly people that have a hard time being serious. I am totally in the middle. I mean I am the middle child. I am so many times put in the middle of things. I guess you could say I am the center of it all!! Totally kidding! I am not at all nor have I ever thought I was the center of anything! But people do tend to gravitate towards me, and I think that is because of my open mindedness. And because I am hilarious!! I mean I am constantly laughing at my jokes! All of my personalities do! Except Patricia….and if you don’t get the reference then call me so I can tell you what is wrong with you!!! Mostly kidding!!

Hmmm…where was I going with this…sour patch kids. Now I want candy…oh snap! I totally have a snickers in my purse thanks to brother! Ok. Snack done, I am back! I guess because these blogs are basically me rambling and hoping more than 2.7 people read them, I will say something so profound you will be astounded to live in the same lifetime as me! Be who you are. Be who you feel you were put on this earth to be. And if that is more than one thing then be more than one damn thing! Happy. Being happy is the key. And being shut away for who you are will never lead to happiness. Surround yourself with people that bring out the best of you. And if you are feeling stuck and unable to find your happy then change. Move to a new city. Buy new clothes. Cut your hair. Paint your nails. Get a big tattoo in a language that you thought was your heritage just to find out you are totally something different! And embrace it! Because who freakin’ cares!! Be sweet, or sour, or plain. But be you!!

“Would I rather be feared or loved? Easy. Both. I want people to be afraid of how much they love me” Michael Scott